Shut-up Your Teenage Brain Tonight

I Like it low and Loud because that’s how I roll!

Well, get up and smell the roses, today is a brand new day.

Shut up and put on some poses lest you end up like I dunno. Something that will die in a ghetto.

It’s time for the morning to have its time ignored or not

And for the night to be the same. You are not playing the game.

Tell me how I almost made it in a timeless buttercup glow

of how I walk in the black man’s shadow. The rapper of

dubious means and character knows enough not to get eaten

and to rise to the top of his miserly kingdom (on beats and rhymes)

Show him a router and he’d grow weak at the knees and for shouting

about the birds and the bees which we all took for granted aged nine and ten.

He is Humpty Dumpty putting us back together again.

But we are not broken, lost or misguided people like you who guide those in the image of you but humans and amazing creatures too.

So put down your mace and pepper and pick up some-thing to make you better.

A pen or a sword might do without needing to ram it down your throat with hate

but to run you through that I might do, to see what comes out of you.

I bet it’s deadly serious stuff, black goo with lumps of ‘hello, how do you do?’

And you’d think that this couldn’t break a rose head on its branch but the hip is hard

and solid yet contain feathers that are honest and sometimes nature comes in hard packages but I don’t want to listen to your empty promises shouted morning noon and night. I don’t like the aggressive person I become when listening to your dum de dum, dum.

So shut up your hate and replace it with something great. Lest I become like you

another soul lost to the ghetto.

Low Fat Peregrine Margarine

Love, control, incest

Love, control, incest

Bees pour down on me

from their honeyed home

Annoyed because I poked his

hive, tongue-tied, now dying alive.

Love, control, incest, sting, sting, sting

Give me support, give me support

take my legs from under me and attach

me to a star, so I can swing merrily along.

Take my backpack and burn its contents

furnish me with clothes and a staff

so I may wander these hills alone.

Love, control, incest, sing, sing, sing.

Still love me to this day

continue in your efforts to contain me

while I walk away up to there, where I

can shout and point at all of you.

Love, control, incest, ring, ring, ring.

Nesting and egg laying birds astound you

where nothing is further than the truth

of laying down and taking and giving

what you are worth.

Sing, Ring, Love, Control, Incest.

Hear me sing (x3)


Death On the Moor Chapter 3

Smelling bad and festering with yellow maggots and pus in the jellyfied state is how I imagine briefly Myra would look on her deathbed, laid flat on  a mortuary slab in an old building with peeling paintwork. I was there looking at her while someone held a clipboard. Then I was thinking about my poster on my wall then back to the mortuary scene, before I think again of the task in hand, retrieving the dead sheep from the hill and bringing it back to the farm where it will be collected and burned.

As there are no labourers in the workforce. not that’s it’s a job entirely of labour. The sheep need a familiar voice around after the other night when the jaguar struck again. I volunteered for the job. I got the job. And seeing as how I am bust tomorrow over at Myra’s, tonight is when I am gong to do it. Shouldn’t be hard really. Just tie a bowline around the two back legs and lift mostly off the ground and drag  back to the farm. A mile and a half over grass and through two fences. Should be easy. Getting there in this cold will be a challenge though hence the vodka. I can feel the warmth in all my extremities and can feel it’s giving me a buzz despite the early frost. I break into ‘Jean went out and bought some old barn, only to find it contained – another barn,’ an old song I learnt as a child and was walking along merrily blowing a great load of breath into the frigid night air. I turned a corner and heard a movement from the woods., like an animal, a big one. I stopped and swore wishing that I had bought my flashlight with me.

‘Whose in there then?’ I said into the bushes ‘Anyone in there?’ I stepped into the forest by about two metres and looked around. Nothing in the clearing up ahead and nothing in the trees. It’s the vodka playing tricks on my mind I hope I added. I turned around to go back to the path and that’s when I heard it again. A thud on the ground I felt more than heard. It then trailed off. I turned around quickly shouting this time ‘Whose there?’ but again I could see no-one.

‘HELLO!’ I shouted but there was no reply. I took another swig from the bottle to settle my nerves and shouted a threat into the darkness lest there be anyone wanting to fool around and headed on back to the path.

Bloody sheep, bloody imagination.

I saw in my head where the sheep minus its brain had lain, right up in the corner of the top field by the dry stone wall. When I got there I could have a sit down first finish the bottle then take the fastest route back home with my load.

Feeling good, I was about to round the corner to the field when I heard a shotgun blast from the top of the field nearby and shouting and screaming.

I ran towards the sound and just heard the gurgle of a death rattle in the mouth of Ted Flanders one of the men from the village always preaching about this and that and one firmly in favour of catching the Jaguar alive.

In the moonlight, I could see that half his face was covered in blood and that his jacket was hanging down between his legs. He turned and fell and I could see that it wasn’t his jacket but his entrails flowing from his stomach that had been ripped open before he fell by what I thought… A Jaguar?

Up ahead was a commotion lit by a Coleman lamp sitting on the wall that one of the men must have bought with them. I heard another shotgun blast and what looked like a man with the head of a jaguar in the flash. I threw away the bottle of vodka in disgust and grabbing a stout stick from the ground rushed up closer to see what was going on.

I saw another body lying on the ground, Aldred Baker, another village man, then I saw his son Jeff Lying on the ground missing one of this arms. And I could hear a gnawing sound and a guttural roar coming from up ahead. Someone screamed, A high terrible sound and then all went silent.

I dropped to the ground. The Coleman lamp above in the field was showing a scene of carnage but no sign of an attacker but something was wrong with me. My face and jaws ached and I could smell the blood and there was something wrong with my fingers.

I lay there in the wet grass and tried to gather my thoughts but all my thoughts were on the pain in my head and face and the feeling in my hands and feet. I tried to stand up but puked instead. I felt bad. very bad but excited by the smell of blood which seemed to permeate every thought and instinct.

I sensed, more than heard a body move  above me and turned over my arms held in front of me in defence. And what I saw coming out of the ends of what used to be my hands surprised me more than the face of the jaguar/man  creature who was now helping me to my feet. I had three-inch claws instead of the hands I used to have and from what I could tell I had grown fangs in my mouth that extruded from my jaws and wrapped around my lower jaw in imitation of the monster now gently mopping my brow and making purring noises. What was happening?

I was gently lead to the body of the former shotgun wielding farmer Giles May He Rest In Peace whose neck was broken judging by the odd angle of his head. I felt sad in the parts of me that were still human but also sad on a new level too aware that a ritual had not yet been completed.

My companion picked up the farmers corpse by his head and bent over him. I heard a large crack and knew that was the man’s skull be opened from the top.  I knew then what I needed to do.

I tried to pick up the shotgun from the floor where it lay loaded broken but ready to fire, but my claws could no pick it up. I cried tears of blood trying to pick up the thing but then realised I could probably do more damage than I could with the shotgun through my claws and teeth. The jaguar-headed and human bodied man was now slurping over the head of the deceased farmer paying me no attention so taking advantage of my position I launched myself at its neck ripping it open from behind  and felt a  great pleasure in feeling its hot blood spurt over my claws. Despite its injury, the monster turned around to face me dropping the corpse and drawing itself up to its full height. Instinct took over and I launched myself again at its throat and with my teeth ripped out what was left of its neck. The creature fell backwards in a spray of  bright red arterial blood and then lay silent.

I was breathing heavily through my nostrils and the smell and taste of human blood were heavy in my thoughts as I figured out my next move.

I moved over towards the dead creature that had taken so many of my friends lives and lifted it up till I held its head in my hands. I opened my jaws as far as I could as I reached down and bit hard. After it was done. I sat down and waited for morning.





Death On The Moor Chapter Two

Death On The Moor Chapter One





Death On the Moor Chapter 1

I’m scared of polyphony. I mean real orchestral stuff in forte or fortissimo. It’s the connection’s of it. It’s connected to my head to my heart, to my body, my soul and I was stupid enough to invite it into my room.

I know what I mean and it’s only because I am broken rejected and annoyed that I feel this way. I would not be overwhelmed  by polyphony if I was deaf. It gets you any other time.

I don’t get this way with the plastic arts. I need a moment. Everything aches and the music is like water stinging and soothing. flowing over a dead stag in a mountain stream. I am the stag, dead, geddit?

See my favourites for edifying glory in decomposing flesh and rotten bones and heads hung up my the hair severed from the body and then painted putrescent green. Grinning skulls. Deaths faces. The dead reborn. Hades incarnate. Yellow pus puddles on my bed and pillow and in this mess I lie every night waiting for Him  to come and take me, cleanse me and lay me down in pastures green.

I say a silent prayer and press play on my keyboard.

Do lead from the front with a double handed sword or do I concentrate my weaponry into Mana and healing?

The sulfur smell returns and suffocated by its yellow stench I return to my duvet and black infinity of doom sleep.

A crows foot is in my hair and its a bit too close to demonic magic for my liking but its only my mother bringing me hot milk and cookies. I stick chewing gum to the brim of her witches hat as she bends down to kiss me good morning. Yo! Hello! Now she helps?!

It’s the high road for me or maybe I’ll stay in bed today. There is a sheep carcass on the upper field that needs dragging down and disposing of. Shouldn’t be a problem for someone …with my fangs! It’s the jaguar they say roaming again taking pleasure in its kills, never eating anything except for the brains after it cracks open the skull with three-inch incisors. Dark cat! We need llamas on the hills say the farmers down the watering hole. Midnight hunts armed with shotguns and torches. good for tourism and reporters looking for a story but nothing in it for us except the flock of course -brings the community together, a crisis.

Our rooms. our boxes. are connected by electricity and wi-fi and we live apart. We share a letterbox and bathroom and kitchen, living room and bills.

On the hearth is a message on a clay tablet. It reads

‘Remember what’s most important’

We will be there on Christmas Day remembering what’s most important as we open presents drink wine and beer and wallow in the family small stuff.

I hate it. I like Doom metal, death metal, black metal anything like that.

There is a full-sized blow-up Santa that I painted my choice of colours last year in Copic Markers. Doom black. Pus Yellow. Flesh pink. Hair brown. Stubble black. Earring gold.They were the best pick of colours from the range. I have it in my room right now. I carry it around. We will be going out soon. I have to be ready. I need am an umbrella. I need walking boots.

Good army boots.

I pull on my German winter combat parka and adjust my dog tags. Then the phone rings. It’s Myra My girl.

We are meeting tonight in the pub then going out then back into the pub for the knees up. Luke and Colin our friends will be there. Vodka shots.

We kiss goodbye over texts and agree to meet up. She is such an artist. I love her.


Chapter 2 of Death On The Moor here

Chapter 3 coming soon