Alone in the dark
A Nihilistic woman
Too scared to make cry
Tag: scared
In My Lonely Room
I am dreaming of you
I am dreaming of you
And the places we shall go
And all the time I know I am too old
I am too old
and too weak
read too strong
not long for this world
addicted to thrills
scared of the young
scared of my room
scared of my music
scared of the world
and people’s impressions
and hearing voices through the walls
it’s not fun being me
Why did I accumulate all this shit
What does it mean to have zones in my room
It was my dream and now I have it and the scars are still raw
see I know it was folly to built Pierrots tower
but I have it on good authority that you live then you die
so what choice did I have than to make the dream mine
before I get the price of admission back and a ticket to hell.
And I’m scared of what I will say and the hole I will dig
before me that’s like SO big. Its like I can only communicate in code
and that code is ENGLISH. So get with the language cons.
It’s no secret that this world is large and complicated but we can take
it and break it down into money sized pieces if we want money. Its all I know. I am sad. Apart from money I am a con.
So now I feel stupid for not breaking the ties that have bound me to home and family for so long. But it’s not like that. It’s hard to explain. Imagine you are living multiple lives and all the lives end except one. now you have to do everything you want through one person. Hell. And people will not let you be. So you adapt. And overcome.
THE END