Quiet internal rising panic, an impending feeling of doom, nervousness, a blank mind, a guilty conscience, feelings of inferiority, feelings of worthlessness and a tendency to concentrate on the negative are currently haunting the country house that is my mind. And the cause of these feelings. Bad relationships, misunderstandings, failures, too much disappointment, not enough highs, dull routines, too much health and safety, cod psychology, sex, drugs and rock and roll, living alone, social ineptness, poverty, police humour, training, suicidal feelings, feelings of complete and utter despair, too much willpower, not enough support, too much sleep, too much propriety, a lack of support, did I say that already?
